Monday, December 31, 2018

Breaking Up

I think to much, sometimes.  I know, how is that possible.  Well I can tell you it is.  Sometimes it is better to just let shit happen, and sort out the details afterwards.  However that too can lead to unwanted consequences.  Finding some balance is not often easy.  That is or should be the goal, to find balance between cognitive constipation and irrational impulse.

Bad habits multiply, so why does it seem that good habits seem to divide?  I do not know why, but that does appear to be the law of distraction.  Kind of wish the law of attraction worked half as well.  Once in the downward spiral, it becomes difficult if not impossible to show the momentum.  On the other hand, when climbing up, it seems there is no end to the work against falling down.

I know there is a breaking point somewhere, and I know I've been there, but getting over that, is an effort most are unwilling or unable to do.  Then there are those that seem to persevere no matter what.

I do not know the answer, but I am trying real hard to find it.


Sunday, December 23, 2018

Re: Amazon Hate Post

I feel like I was a bit bitter towards the Lifehacker site.  Not that it matters, they will never see my blog, and no one else will read it, so while those fuckers will make another 10k on their post about how terrible they feel about something, or how they are upset because they didn't get their package from Amazon in two days, I will remain anonymous.  Which is fine by me, I have better things to do than give a shit about such things.  Just sometimes I feel the need to say something, even if I know it won't make one bit of difference.

Ok, said my peace, off the box now and back to the same old bs I usually post that no one reads.


More Amazon Hate BS

Everyday I see some article bashing Amazon because they are a horrible company for (insert reason of choice here).  Now I am no fan of Amazon, but I am a prime member.  I have been a prime member pretty much since that service has been offered by Amazon.  I don't even use it all that much.  I buy a few things here and there, just like I but things her and there from Walmart.  If I wanted to be some type of elitist who sticks my pampered nose up at any low end retailer, yea both of the aforementioned retailers would be in my list, along with several others.  I am not, I am a realist in this respect.

I buy stuff I need, and I love on a fixed income (trying to fix that) so I shop at such places because they fit the budget I have.  I also do not want to waste a lot of fuel going from market to market trying to get the things I need.

Enough of my shit, now about Amazon being a horrible company.  Hell they most likely are not the best company to work for, what one is.  This article talks about mistreatment of workers.  Give me a break, please.  I've looked into working at an Amazon center.  It is not really any different than working for UPS or any other shipping company.  Yes it is fast paced, yes it is hard work, but sometimes hard work is all there is.  These people that work at Amazon are likely not people who have a master's degree in anything.  They are indeed labor.  They make fifteen dollars an hour picking products and putting them on a cart to be shipped.  Are you kidding me.  What kind of job do you have, oh that is right you are a blogger, and that means you make your living talking shit about other people you have no real connection to.

I was a computer technician for the better part of twenty years, now retired I talked care of my wife who had a debilitating disease.  That means she needs me to be there for her 24/7/365.  I would gladly take $15 an hour over the barely subsistence income the government expects my wife to love on.  I won't go into the whole BS about if I try to work full time, provide healthcare for my wife (especially of any quality), and pay our bills.  Just letting you know that before my wife got sick I was a full time working stiff.  And work I did.  I was on the road six days a week, usually from before the sun came up, and I rarely got home, if I got home, until way past sundown.  I rarely saw my wife or or children, and yet that made me a better guy.  I made more money, but paid it more money, so ready no further ahead at the end of the day.  Very often I came home, slept for for hours and left.  I might as well not had a home.  My money went into my account and out again to pay bills and expenses, and I'm not sure what else, I never knew what the family did.  On Sunday I slept most of the entire day waking up enough to take a shit, a shower, and put some food in my gut, so at 4am Monday morning I could get back on the road and fix the technology that makes all this shit possible, including the servers that run your blog.  At least if I worked for Amazon I would be home everyday, and though I might not have made quite as much money, I would not had spent quite as much trying to make that money either.

At least those people have jobs.  Amazon provides jobs for thousands of people.  Unskilled people who do not have a useless degree, or a student loan.  When I got my first job when I was 16 I earned $2.50 an hour waking dishes.  The cooks were assholes, the wait staff thought they were above all the back of the house.  The manager only cared that you showed up, and treated you like shit.  I cleaned up after elitist pricks like you, for barely enough money to spit at, and I was happy to get my check each week, so I could afford to have a like fun on my day off.  I've been a cook, I've built houses, I've repaired things, and kept the internet going for useless ignorant bleeding heart liberals like you all my life.

Sometimes you should consider that shit work is paid shit, because it is shit and someone had to do it so prissy pricks like you can decry the working conditions of people you would look at with disgust, especially if they didn't have a job, even if it is a shitty one.


Saturday, December 22, 2018

The Next Thing to Do

In the near future I am just going to travel around reviewing old taverns and inns.  I am going to start in upstate NY area, before branching out into wider areas.

Of course I will have to wait until I get my license thing taken care of.  I got a bunch of fine and other things to pay off yet.  Then they is the issue of the transmission on the trailblazer.  Those are relatively minor issues, once I can get some cash stashed.

I've got a storage unit full of stuff to sell, a wood stove, lots of smalls, and books.  Who reads books anymore?  What with readers from Amazon and others, ebooks are pretty much the thing.  Most of the book stores are gone, at least as far as I know.  There might be a couple of big ones left, but the little nook type places have completely disappeared.  Maybe in my travels I will do a small bit on hidden book stores too.

Yes so before I went on that rant about book stores I was trying to say, I have a lot of stuff to sell.  This will give me some cash to get some stuff done.  In the meantime, while I wait for the new year, so I can buy some lights, so I can actually take pictures of the stuff, and sell it, I am going to keep looking at things I can do to earn a bit of cash so I can buy the lights and sell my stuff.

Once I sell off all that stuff, I have another house full of stuff to sell, including a VW van, a tractor, and maybe a horse trailer.  That is just the big items, again lots of smalls, lots of books, and those types of things.

Get that stuff sold and fix up the RV, and then I, Arleta and the dogs are off to see things.  Nothing exotic or far way, just things around here, in upstate.  Day trips mostly, you know, a night over in some little place on the weekend.  Then I will write a little something about a tavern we stopped at, with pictures.  This is not a job, not a money making thing, it is something I just want to do for the hell of it.


Blog This

I was thinking of starting a blog, but I am not sure about what.  Seems there are a lot of them out there already, so I feel like I would just be one of millions.  How could I differentiate my blog from all the rest?

I think it is a lot of hard work.  First off if you blog even twice a week, you have to create content every week.  Then you have to work the social networks, like Twitter.  To make any money, not a lot of money but any money at all, you should have an affiliate account, like Amazon or commission junction.  Then you have to build readership, you need subscribers to build brand.

Mostly you have to blog about a niche someone, well a lot of someones, want to read about.  Then you have to consistently write about that niche at least a couple times a week.

Then the social networks.  You have to post your post to the social networks.  I've heard good things about Instagram.  I do not own a smart phone, or any phone for that matter, so I could not say anything about it.

I've had an Amazon affiliate account, but never had enough activity with it too keep it.  I am not that interesting, and pretty anti-social so I think that is not a good stream for me.

So I want to start a blog, but I just don't think it is something that will work for me.


Now I Can See

Lots of stuff went on today.  I got new glasses, bi-focals.  Apparently I am going blind.

We went to Shamir's and spent way too much of our holiday money on feta that is to die for, and black cardamom seeds.  Then I bought cloves and all the rest of the fixings for hot buttered rum.

The people at the liquor store were great.  I haven't purchased a spot of liquor in many years, and many of the brands have changed.  They provided me with a reasonable priced rum.  I have tasted it, and I do think it will work perfectly in our cocktail.  So far I think they have done me a great service.

I used to know much more, but now I am just as lost as, well I was never this lost, but at least now I can see.

We'll see how this goes, I will be trying to make them tomorrow.


Friday, December 21, 2018

Something More Better

I am trying to post a little more, yet I still hate swipe.  I guess hate is really to strong a word.  I just do not feel like it is the same as writing.  I especially like the feel of a fine nib as it snatches out words on the page.  It is almost like I am engraving the paper with the pen, only easier.

All in, I am waiting, for the light.  Not much else to do, just sit here, and watch more videos.  I can see a future for us, as slim as it is, it exist.  I like to think of the future, yet sometimes I think is there any future for us really?  I am never prepared for the worst, because no matter what happens it could always be worse.  How do you plan for that?

In the meantime; I wait, I think, yea soon, not real soon, but soon, we will get a break, and the ridiculousness will finally cease to plague us.

What nonsense is this, man you can tell I haven't had enough coffee.  I will try to post something more better later.


Thursday, December 20, 2018

Passed Me by Again

Today is a good day, so far.  It remains to be seen how much actually gets done.  Just drinking coffee, thinking about the weather, and wishing I was somewhere else.

Load up the trailer, hook up the truck, get it all done before anyone else can say what, where or why.

I don't think so well in swipe.  My thoughts flow much better in ink, I think.  Still I'm trying to make it work.

I really just want a place for my dogs to run without threat of death or bothering anyone.  Where can I go where we can be left alone.  Where can we go, where we can have some friends over for a nice dinner and maybe a bit of brandy afterwards?

These are the thoughts that run through my head.  I don't think to much about tomorrow.  If only I can achieve some sense of peace.  Some place to call home, that is all we want, without the hassle from the neighbors, or local bureaucrats.

A hot shower, some clean clothes, a stove that works, maybe even a little space to grow a few vegetables.  Oh my would that be a welcome sight.  No one else but us two, and the dogs, maybe a rabbit or two.  Is that so much to ask?

A room where I can work, undisturbed.  A typewriter, do they even make such things anymore?  A bottle of bourbon and some nice tobacco.  There is so much to do to get there.  Everyone is so busy, busy with life, I am just waiting for the end, don't really care about the in-between.  Call me on the telephone, leave a message, and maybe, just maybe, I might return your call.

I don't have a cell phone, but I will have a phone.  You know the type with a cord attached to the wall.  I almost want a rotary.  When did I become such a Luddite?  Leave me be, with my scratchy pen and cheap notebook.  I am generating mysteries for the dime store, though they do not exist anymore.

So I have to format everything to sit on tablets and phablets, and readers and to be read on streams.  I have to chat with the fans, lucky I have none, cause they would be disappointed.  I sit here and think of what might have been, had I just followed my dreams.

It is cold outside, but my lovely wife warms my heart.  I need nothing else.  Do not worry about me.  A little help from my friends, if I had any.  They are out there living their dreams.  Good for them, I am happy for them, truly.  I just sit here waiting, waiting for the end.  Is it still cold outside, or has spring passed me by again.


Tuesday, December 18, 2018

No Perception of Purpose

I wonder who you are, where your entitlement comes from?  What commission have you been given?  What righteous indignation do you justify your actions.  Why do you carry that cross?

There is no greater calling than the goodness of man.  While I am not the bearer of such greatness within my own self as well, I recognize the lack thereof.  The gain is unknown to me.  I know not your pain and suffering.  It must be of some immense transgression that your pretty hatred stems.

I will not be the bearer of your stone.  I will not been my knee to your desperation.  Your decision is an ill gotten infection of your own inadequate capability to function somehow.  I will not lie in such mire.  For this is not the truth, and I shall not be the panacea for your perceived negligence.


Friday, December 14, 2018

Let Sleeping Dogs Lie

All you fuckers should have left me alone.  I am going to enjoy this too much.  I did not start the fire, but I am going to feed it, she is a hungry beast.

Ah, the challenge, well not really much of one, but oh the thought of burying these fuckers just made my year.

Thank you,

Sunday, December 09, 2018

Near That Time

Fuck this world, it is not worth the effort to try any more.  I am much too old to give a shit, and there is very little time left to make a difference.

Thank you,

Saturday, December 01, 2018

Merry Effing Xmas

The other day my wife said I still have to get you a Christmas gift.  Out of hand I said, don't worry about it.

Now that I think about it, I can not think of one thing I want or need really.  No, really, I can not think of one thing, one trinket that I would desire.

I am thinking, what would be nice?  A pint of warm stout, a pipe of Cavendish, on a sofa, with my wife, the dogs, and a nice warm fire, with some sweet low-fi jazz on playing softly in the background.  I think a nice evening of peaceful retreat from the insanity that is this f'd up life.

If you could wish for just one thing, just one simple thing, what would it be?  Medical technology that brings health back to my wife, so her life would not be a struggle to breathe.  To meet up with my old friends just one more time before memory wipes away all traces of their names from my memory.

I just can not think of anything.  Maybe, just a quiet end to my evening would be the best thing I could hope for.  You cannot buy that in a store. 

What would you wish for more than anything?


Saturday, September 08, 2018

GV Pasta, not Such a Great Value

How can a company take the same ingredients and make such an interior product?

I have purchased Great Value pasta from Walmart several times, hoping that perhaps the first few times it was a fluke.  No, every time it is bad.  It is mushy, no matter how I cook it, it still comes out pasty.  I've cooked it per instructions, still pasty.  I've cooked it less time, rinsed it in cold water, still pasty.  I've cooked it and let it set, still mushy and pasty.

It may be cheap, but somehow they have taken what is essentially a very simple to make product and made it so poorly that it is inedible.

I think it must be either their process, or the quality of their wheat.  Maybe it is both, but something just does not work.  I have used other store brands, like Wegmans' brand pasta, not even their premium label, just their standard label, and it comes out good every time.

Of course none of it is as good as fresh made pasta, but that is a different subject completely.  I do not expect even premium brands to be as good as fresh made pasta.  Still I can not for the life of me figure out what Walmart does to their pasta.  I can tell you this, I will not buy it again, I might as well throw my money away, it is that bad.

Maybe you do not have this issue, but for me it is just a no go, never again.


Wednesday, July 04, 2018

Curtain Cat Call

What do you people want from me?  Want me to talk about politics?  To talk about Trump?  He is who he is, meet him once, many years ago, was having lunch in a place in NY City with my employer, her knew Donald.  Donald came over, I was introduced, we did not speak though.  Donald talked to my employer.  His Manor of speech that he uses is for the common folk, it endears him to his perception of his core constitutes.  That day he was loud and obnoxious to the waitress, but articulate and relatively intellectual to my employer, so take from that what you will.  He is not quite our worst president, definitely not a good leader, but he only wanted to run and win, he did not know what it takes to be an insider.

The Republicans tried to get rid of Obama for eight years, so I guess it is only fair that the Democrats will try to get rid of Trump for four years.  I do not think he has the staying power.  So it is unlikely he will be around much longer, but we will get past this, and most likely whoever gets in afterwards will spend the next four years trying to repair the damage.  Politics is a ruthless game with few winners, and a lot of losers.  I considered a political career for a brief moment.  I came to my senses when the John Birch society tried to co-op me for their cause.

Global politics is even more corrupt, and far too complex to address in a short blog post, so I will leave that for another day.

So is that what you want?  Maybe you want financial opinion, hmm?  Well to be perfectly honest with you, I have been out of the loop for the most part on the financial scene.  In fact I have been out of the scene no matter what you are talking about.  When I decided to become a regular guy, well that meant pulling out of the scenes.  I no longer went to art openings, I no longer hung out with local politicians, or college professors (pretty much the same thing).  I no longer hung out with the press, or editors of newspapers.  I did not go to parties with my friends, I gave up my retainers on lawyers, and I stopped making connections with business people.

That used to be my life.  That used to be who I was.  Though I was never a social person, I made connections with owners of bars and taverns, with people who had influence in places and politics.  I used my connections, and I had my circle of friends who I could hang out with who would help me drink away my stress.  I used to write poetry, and short stories, some of which I actually had published in lesser known rags.

I used to read the pink sheets, and bet on the penny stocks, and sometimes I even bet on the exchange, but mostly I just watched the markets and gave away my advice.  I tried to start a few small businesses, but they were a little ahead of their time, so my timing was off there.

Then I lost.  I went down in flames, and I left it all to burn behind me.  I lost who I considered my daughter, I lost my will to desire, and I tried to find the emptiness that was loss.  Then I was found, by a goddess who was in as much trouble as I was.  A match made more in darkness than in light, we still are together, but deep in shadow.

So what do you want from me, I poured out my life to you, what more do you want?

I will sacrifice myself to your pleasure, but please just tell me what do I have to do to be in the good graces again, so I can at least live a simple life without the hounds on me for a couple of years before I completely bow out of this good night.


Tuesday, June 12, 2018

What You Get for Thinking

I do everything wrong, no key words in my title, no hot topics in my blog, but here I am again watching the same old shoot'em up, and the same old who done what to whom.  I don't know much about anything, I just know I keep putting these miles behind me, and no matter how far I roam, I'm still ten thousand miles from home.

Hum this with a twelve four beat, it won't make it any better it will just be funny to me that some people will actually try to.

What am I doing here, watching the dogs, as they go ballistic after another motorcycle, or some random noisey car. 


Saturday, June 09, 2018

Too Much to Tell

I did not think I would be effected.  I do not usually feel death the same as most people.  I mean people die, they go their way, and leave behind a useless cage.  I still had this weird feeling that he was going to come over and say it was okay.  He always did that, console me, tell me it will be okay, and I believed him, if even for the moment.

He is silent now, not even the echo of his voice remains.  Memories linger longer, but even they will fade.  I grasp at them like reeds in a storm, the water rises, I am not a strong swimmer.

They gave him a good christian burial, I know he deserved that.  What else could they do, they do not know any better, ignorant as they are.  Death is for the living, we even celebrate it.  The past fades, we slip into routines and accept the ghost as they are, memories of what they were.  Nothing remains once the remains are laid to rest.

I should have said something, should have made a statement, a testament to his greatness.  People do that, they pronounce their understanding of the person that was, and profess their gratitude for the past they will hold onto.  I failed him, in that, I should have been stronger in the face of that.  Why did I wait so long to say goodbye, that was stupid.

We all do, busy souls, busy looking busy, trying to make ends meet, they don't.  Fruitless in our pursuit of happiness, of wealth, of all that is holy, of purpose, for a brief moment, fleeting as it is, it all ends the same, our useless form rotting in a tomb, for some future that does not exist.  Why do we perform such rituals?  What do they provide us with?  It never made any sense to me, but I guess something must be done.

I drone on, stumbling through philosophical bullshit, asking why, why does this still affect me, why am I still thinking, why haven't I laid to rest the ghost of my past?  I am expecting no answer, because there is no one to answer, he is gone and he will not say it is okay any more.

I have to go now, because it is starting to rain, just a little, and I can't see as well as I used to, through the blur.  Perhaps my eyes are getting tired, this light is not very bright, and I think I hear someone calling my name.


Sunday, May 27, 2018

You Would Not Believe Me Anyway

Here then is this article,, which discusses the making of your own religion, or thereby another copy of such religions as has been made before.  It does not discuss the making of a religion, but the re branding of current concept of religion under a new brand.  It is still the bronze age idea of "God" based religion.

You can not make your own religion, because religion has too much structure, for it to work, it must conform to the conventions of current religions.  If you read the article, read some of the comments, they are as important to the discussion.  There are plenty of comments from people who profess to be atheist, which by definition is the belief in nothing, yet they believe they are atheist, therefore negating the entire argument.

The author of the article states that human beings are hardwired to be religious.  This is not exactly true, we are hardwired to believe in somethings, no matter what they are.  Religions have this knowledge, and have used it to gain from what might be a weakness of the human.  Even the belief in science or physics does not make them any more true.

This leads us to another point the author made, that religion is based on truths.  This is partly true.  A truth is a belief that is generally held to be true, it is not a fact.  A fact is something that can not be refuted, it can be proven, and it is above truth.  However if he meant that your religion should be based on "true facts" then that would not be a religion, but would be a study.  However if you knew how "scientific fact" was determined, you would realize that it is just another form of religion.  It is scientific fact that facts lie, that they are not immutable, and that even the physical laws are not written in stone, but may or may not be provable.

One comment used the bullet to the head argument for belief in "God".  This is not an argument at all, this is a desperate plea by someone who thinks they have been wronged by some persecution by some sect of the population or another.  They believe that they can "prove" or disprove the existence of "God" through a physical act.  That is not how "God" works, that is how gods work, not how the "God" works.  Since you can not prove your own existence, it would be impossible to prove or disprove the existence of any entity beyond your comprehension.  When you can offer factual proof of your own existence, I will then begin to consider the process of proving other beings.

Let us take some basic "truths" of the physical world.  All matter is the manifestation of energy into a form that is consumable.  Another way to see that is that all matter is energy.  However not all energy is matter, so therefore there must be energy that is not matter.  All that we know is matter, energy is a force that we know because of the matter that exist.  We do not have a means to detect energy, we can only assume energy exist because we can detect the results, or matter.  We do not know all matter, there is matter that exist that we only assume exist because we can detect the energy that should be present.  Therefore there must be anti-matter, and there must be more than one state of energy.

Okay, now I am going to leave the realm of energy for something else, nature.  Nature is something we can all agree on right, it is as it is.  We can sense nature, right.  It is a physical manifestation of matter, that is it is physical in nature, it contains energy in a form that we can detect and sense with our limited senses.  We can see, touch, taste, smell, hear even nature, right.  Therefore nature must be of the physical nature, and must be matter.  So I ask, what are the states of nature?  Does nature have states, like energy does?  These are of course questions to which there are not any easy answers.

Suppose nature has two states, this simplifies the question and allows for less confusion.  It also bears out over the course of study.  What are the two states of nature?  Let us say they are order and chaos.  The actual states are moot, and the labels we apply to them are merely for convenience of communicating the ideas that are acceptable to most people.  So we will call them order and chaos, as that makes this much easier to grasp, but only marginally.

Nature has two states.  The natural state is order, this is the state of balance.  When this state exist, all is in balance, and nothing changes.  Order is the status in balance, no energy is consumed or transmuted, and matter exist in balance.  Chaos is the creative phase, here is where change exist.  In chaos destruction is creation, for you can not have one without the other.  Energy is neither created or destroyed, it is only transmuted, therefore only when it is unstable can it be transmuted.  When it is balanced, it is not transmutable, and all matter in that state must remain in that state, for it is not transmutable.  It retains the energy to be transmutable, but it is not in that state therefore is is not transmutable.  Once it becomes unstable it is transmutable.  Therefore one of the states of energy is entropy.  By knowing or at least accepting the two states of nature, we therefore can begin to accept the states of energy.  We can see this by the form of nature, the transmutation of matter that is nature.  Since energy is susceptible to entropy, to decay, that would mean that nature is as well.  All nature is matter, all matter is energy, therefore all of nature is ruled by the same rules as energy.  Therefore all nature must decay, and from that decay comes destruction, and chaos is destruction and creation, so from destruction comes creation, therefore there is not balance, and all nature is mutable, as is all matter, but not all energy.  Some energy is not mutable, some energy does not decay, some energy is not susceptible to entropy, and therefore there must be some energy that creates without the destruction.

How do we know this?  We do not, or at least science does not.  I know this, and I will discuss this at another time.  This is "God", the energy not susceptible to entropy.  It is not the "God" but if you are referring to your "God", the creator god, this is what you are referring to.

So yes the author of this article was presenting this with "tongue in cheek", but he was not far off.  All standard religions are created this way.  All religions that have a "God" are created this way.  The god religions, the polytheistic religions that do not have a "God" are a different breed, but they are stone age religions, and have long since been forgotten.  Any religion with a creator "God" is the same and any religion, a creation of man to understand creation, but more so to understand nature.  That most of them, nearly all of them have been corrupted by man is not surprising.  That they have been and are still used to manipulate the peasants is not surprising.  That they are opposed, that other variations are devised to "correct" the weaknesses is not surprising, they are creations of man, they will continue to reflect the creators.

Belief is false, even if it is based in fact, as even facts are false.  Belief can be true to some, but it will not be true for all, and there will be a point where it will fail to be true for most people.  This is because belief is influenced by emotions, and emotions are influenced by perceptions, and perceptions are based on instruments that are not specific enough to present facts that are irrefutable.

However, we are, for the most part hardwired to "believe" in something, even if that something is ourselves.  We are further given to believe in concepts that are for the most part universal among humans, though they may not be so among other species.  I do not think a tree believes its death is noble, and though it will play its part in decomposition, which is far more important than we as humans tend to present, it does not think of such things, at least I do not think it does.  I want to believe that there is a spirit, that there is a form of energy that is not transmutable, but I can only say that I believe that there is such, I only have personal experience, and perhaps some conjecture as to the truth of the non-transmutable energy that is in all of nature.  That although every bit of matter, and all of the anti-matter, be it made of light energy, or dark energy is transmutable energy, but I can not say that with impunity.

As any one that reads this knows, I have recently lost member of my family, my brother to be exact.  I have at least lost the matter that mattered to most people.  That is his "soul cage" has ceased to be useful to the spirit that within it existed.  That is something I believe, that although entropy may destroy the matter that matters most to most people, that the energy that is most important to the matter that matters most to me, is not transmutable, that is can not exist in this dimension as it is, nor can it be detected in any way with any instruments that we have, as we would have to create them, and therefore they would only detect that which is detectable by our own abilities.  That we have not ventured beyond this dimension is only proof that we have no imagination.  It i only proof that fear rules us, and that makes us susceptible to those who would attempt to manipulate us.  As humans we are susceptible to manipulation because we allow emotions to guide us.  We can not do otherwise, as that point of energy, as dense as it is, it is only chaos, it is not able to come into balance, and therefore we can not either.  How this is, I can not say, I can not say because you would not believe me anyway.


Sunday, May 13, 2018

Family Values

Been trying to get my head wrapped around this for some time now.  From the day I learned of his diagnosis, I knew the eventual outcome.  Still I thought it should not be.  I have been so distant, so remote, I did not know these people anymore.  Still I felt as though I knew my brother, I would see him here and there.  I still do not know what to say to anyone.

At some point I had broken away from the family, and I have never reconnected on any level really.  The past I thought was behind me, ghost of a distant self, now haunt me from the prison of my mind.  Shadows stalk me from the shadows of those that before me tread these paths.  I am not alone here, but I am without something, something I never thought mattered until yesterday.

Tom is gone, he gave me hope, reminded me of humanity, and I wanted that, though it was out of reach for me.

A new person comes along, and I am still cautious, there is no reason, no rhyme, I should not have seen this, I am way beyond my time.  Am I just the person I am today, or did something spark the ancient self in the loss, that lingers yet within, now close to the boiling point, yet beyond my grasp.

I feel sorry for those that are left without the sun that was the shining example of my brother, while the darkness slowly begins again to consume what was left of my soul.  All that remains is a singular spark of my wife, the love of my life, and I just do not know if she even has enough light to temper the depth of shadows that lies behind me, waiting for the last of my will to relinguish what she has held aloft for so long.


Wednesday, April 18, 2018

Blogging for Bloggers

After nearly two weeks of frustration, I have realized one thing, building a blog on WordPress is not as easy as the YouTubers make it out to be.  It is pretty simple to set up, with one click install and all.  Setting up security, it is a little more difficult, but with a few plugins that is not too bad.  Then a few more plugins and you can have a fairly interesting site in a fairly short amount of time.  Just add content and you are all set.

Add an ecommerce plugin like woocommerce and you have a decent site for your blog I guess.

The truth is to do this, you need more than just a domain name, a web server, a CMS application, and an ecommerce solution.  Maybe I am wrong, most likely I am wrong.

Let me give you a little background.  I started out with technology pretty much when it started.  I built my first computer from a kit.  I had to learn programming because there really wasn't any applications.  Some friends and me built applications, and just for fun we did some hacking.

I was a field service tech for quite some years, providing network service and basically fixing computers all around the Northeast.  This is one of the reasons I just do not buy into the ai thing.  I have seen the network and hardware from the field, and have used applications from the beginning of their existence.  All that aside, and without going into too much detail, I have a fair idea about technology.

I used to build websites, with html, before css even existed.  Then I used css when it first came into being from W3C.  I learned Java, JavaScript, the Dom, and the list goes on.  At one time I could paper my bedroom with the certifications I held.  All that means nothing today.  I remember when Dreamweaver came out, and I still preferred hand coding.  With the plugin and visual composers, I am totally at a loss.

So I have embarked on this journey, and right now I am starting all over again.  Believe when I say, I would rather hand code, but that is not the way these days.  So let me tell you, right now, I do not think much about WordPress, it is not high my list, but it is a priority.  I am struggling with it, but I am learning, albeit I am my own worst problem.  As I try to get out of my way, we will see how it goes.

Here's the point, what the WordPress gurus tell you, what the blog gurus tell you is total bullshit.  They are trying to sell you in their courses, their products, and hoping you will click on their affiliate links.  Does that mean they have nothing to teach you, no you can learn from them, and to be perfectly honest with you, follow them and you are going to build a great site.  You just will not know how or why.  For lots of people that is fine, but for me that just does not work.


Friday, April 06, 2018

Amazon Reviews

I've been buying from Amazon for quite a few years now, and have really increased my number of products I buy from them over the past couple of years.  I think it is time I went back on the site and actually provided some reviews of the products I have used.

Oh wait, maybe what I should do is write the reviews on a blog, and then use a snapshot of the full review, with my blog site link in it, to post on Amazon.  And I could put an Amazon affiliate link in my blog post to the product, so when I publish the blog post and update my Twitter feed, it would have the affiliate link built in.

Now I need to build a Twitter post frame, so that too enhances my brand.  Wait first I have to build the brand identity.

I guess posting a review on Amazon just got a whole lot more complicated.  Well first I need to see if I can actually build a template for the blog.  There is a lot to do, I really need to get busy.


Sunday, April 01, 2018

Oh Really

I read, and watch a lot of stuff on the web about this positivity movement.  It is great, sure, but sometimes you need to have a reality check.  Sometimes you just have to recognize stupid for what it is.

Now about here I could interject a bunch of wit about being a realist, or how life is not this or it is this, but I do not believe that is helpful.

No, I will say if you want to delude yourself, and that works for you, go ahead.  The same can be said for negativity, if you want to hate all day every day be my guest, just do not do it in my house.  You see I am a classical realist, and I will see the truth, and I have no qualms of telling it like it is, with no sugar added.

However I will say I do enjoy the company of a wide-eyed optimist over a white supremacist most any day.

This brings me to a subject that I have not yet broken, but it has finally gotten to me, and I will be talking about it soon.  There is only one race of human, no matter what these pictuary idiots try to say.  That post is coming, just thought I would warn you, in case you want to skip that one.

So for now stay real, and have a fairly okay day.


PS: Buy my t-shirt, it will help me buy coffee, thanks.

Friday, March 23, 2018

Tesla, Still a Buy and Hold, but

One thing I want to make sure everyone is aware of, is that I am not a financial planner, or investment adviser, or any other professional designated person, and I do not provide any type of financial or legal advisement.

That said, I am still suggesting that Tesla is a buy and hold for now, at least while they are still holding the orders for their commercial semi truck platform.  As long as they continue to develop in the areas of commercial transport, and commercial energy, they will continue to be a buy and hold prospect.

One thing I am going to say about Tesla and I am surprised about this (though not completely) is that they did not build on the platform.  Therefore I do not think that Tesla should invest in building a pick-up truck.  Here is why.  If they wanted to build a truck platform, that would be good, but it would have to be a heavy duty platform.  That should be their first goal, build the platform.  Once they have the platform, they could build a heavy duty truck on it, or just build the platform and have other third party companies build the body style.  By having the platform, software, and technology, they would provide a base on which other companies could design and build their own style of trucks.  They could build pick-up trucks, box trucks, ambulances, and the list goes on.

This is the failure of the Tesla system, they did not build platforms.  They should have a platform for the sedan (Model S) that is the same platform on which the Model X is built on, and the Roadster is built on.  The same for the compact platform, the Model 3 should be built on a compact platform that could have a sedan, a roadster, a crossover, even a small truck if they wanted.  Because they were platforms they could put just about any body they want on to the platform, tweak the motors if they wanted, but the platform stays the same.  This way they have a compact platform, a mid sized platform, and a heavy duty platform.

This then would give them all sorts of partnership opportunities with designers and builders to build on the platform, and make new styles of vehicles that suit many more needs, and they would be able to come to market much quicker with their designs as they would be on an established platform.

I know they do not like to build partnerships, and I understand that completely, but it can be done right, and if they do the right thing, they will succeed and they will definitely be upgraded to a buy and acquire.  Right now their long term prospects are based, in my opinion, on their commercial concerns, and that is a lot of top heavy projects sitting on top of a very competitive market.  I do hope they see that they have the opportunity to scrap their current way of doing things, see that a platform would be better for current and future growth.

I am still saying, get some, get in on the hype and buy some Tesla stock, hell, even buy some of their products, they are fairly good, though they could be better.  They are still on my buy list, but they have to change their isolation policy if they expect to grow enough to support more than just the first adopters.  Many other companies will come along, do it better and do it cheaper, and I would hate to see another Edsel.


Thursday, March 22, 2018

Jeff Rose: Make Money Blogging: From 0 to $1,000 per day

I have watched a lot of blogs on financial planning, especially on writing a blog, and this one is one of the best I have seen.  Though it really is a 15 minute commercial for his free email handbook, and a way to include monetization into his video, I still find it valuable.

Though I have not read it, I am going to suggest that you buy and read his book "Soldier of Finance". If it is at least half as good as his videos, it will be full of useful information, irrelevant humor, and worth whatever it cost.

I will likely buy the book and maybe even review it, but get it now, and start to help yourself today.



Saturday, March 17, 2018

THE FOREST #45: with Chay & Gopher - The Cave of Death!

This is the best stream on the web, always entertaining.  Do not forget to like the video, and tell them you found them from the blog, if you want to.



Friday, March 09, 2018

Amazon Merch, Maybe

Well I signed up for my Amazon Merch account, and everything seemed to be going great.  I had to get an online savings account, because apparently Amazon will take PayPal as a form of payment (well only my debit card), but they will not pay out to a PayPal account.  So after about a week of faffing around with the bank, I finally got the account set up.

Now my account is all set up with Amazon, not with PayPal yet, as the deposits haven't hit the bank account so I can make the deposits to PayPal, or some such nonsense.  This is all such BS, so much faffing around when I know there is no such thing as security, and the rest is all red tape crap for the government.  Anyway, the accounts are set up and I thought I was on my way.  Thought I would have a T-shirt to present to my readers, just a basic T-shirt with blog title on it, something to get the ball rolling.

Nope, not yet, now Amazon is holding my T-shirt hostage for some unknown reason.  More delays, more faffing around.  I really do not get it.  They get most of the money for the sale.  Hell I only get less than a dollar for each T-shirt sold, so why are they holding the whole thing up.

So yea, here was the plan, I was going to post the shirt and a coffee cup here, let people buy them and help out the blog and get something in return.  I was going to pull some of the good stuff out of the blog and put that up, and see what would come of it.  It seemed to me to be the best way to do things.  This way the people who help support the blog get something in return, and I get a small amount of money (really small) for putting stuff on a shirt for the readers.

Already a week into this little foray and I have just about had enough.  I am going to give Amazon another day to release my T-shirt, and if they do not, well I am done with that too.  I know it sounds like I am giving up too easily, but really why all the BS over something so simple.  Whatever, I will report back tomorrow one way or the other.


Thursday, March 08, 2018

Swell Thing and New Blog colors

Awesome, I just kind of, sort of made a few minor changes to my blog.  Mostly I changed a few of the sidebar things (took out the redundancy), and changed the colors of the backgrounds and text so it suits me a little more.  It is not perfect yet, I still do not like the colors quite, and now my links are all broken.  I do not know how changing the colors broke all the links, but it did, swell.

So for the next few days I am going through every single blog post and changing the links so that they all work properly again.  I may toy with the colors some more to get it closer to my desired design, but for the most part I am done there.

I do not foresee the link fixing as being all that enjoyable, or for that matter useful, but there is this thing about me, that I want the links to work, even if they will never be used by anyone.

One bonus to this is that now I can go through all my post and insert Amazon affiliate links where appropriate, so maybe that will at least help me some.  Ah, who am I kidding, I have had Amazon affiliate links in my post for years and I have earned nothing from them.  Still it is worth a try.  I will only be using text links though now, so there will not be any graphic links, unless it is necessary to the post.

I know, no one cares, and this is more a post for my own edification, but there it is.


Tuesday, March 06, 2018

Legalize it All

At some point you were all expecting this post, so here it is.

I have been, and remain an advocate for the decriminalization and outright abatement of all laws pertaining to the use of drugs.  That is to say, I have some personal limits, I feel no need to disclose such here, as my use is my own issue, past and present.  However, that said, my stance has not changed on the use of all substances, considered to be illegal.  This really stems to a deeper level of my stance on the legislation of morality, but that is a ball I am not going to unravel at the moment, too much.

In this "great" country of ours, currently there is this wave of debate as to the legality of cannabis use.  I have read extensive articles, treatises, and scholarly documents on both sides of this debate, and for me there is usually too much passion in either side.  This leads me to take either with a very large dose of skepticism.

First let me state right from the beginning that I advocate for all substances, and do not think that any one of them are better or worse, but that like any substance considered dangerous it is in the user, not the substance.  To much of anything that is toxic can cause issues, to little and it has no effect, so it is the dosage that is important.  Morphine was a boon to medicine, just ask those poor bastards that had to have their limbs cut off before such opiates were used to numb the pain.  It goes without saying, but I will say it anyway, like penicillin, too much of a good thing, can be as bad as too little of nothing.  Now some Buddhist is saying, oh no, the body can handle anything if one just gets into the right place.  That would be good, if we could somehow control our baser reactions, and somehow stop running into an open field and seeing if we can eliminate each other for whatever cracked reason some greedy bastard has decided was appropriate.

I say fuck that, as long as we are human, we will be stupid, and we might as well stop trying to protect the ignorant from themselves.  I have heard the arguments about other people that get hurt, how the drunk driver kills some innocent victim, and so on and so forth.  It goes without saying that I am of the mind that most people are too dam dumb to drive a car, and that we need smarter cars because people keep getting dumber with every wave of idiots that get licenses.

Here's my answer, legalize everything, tax the shit out of it, and then funnel the money into research and education, useful education (if that is possible, but that is another story), and at least that way maybe, just maybe, the problems will solve themselves, or at least we will have found a different way to decrease the surplus population that does not involve sending a bunch of kids out to fight for some pig sluts profit.


Monday, March 05, 2018

7 Principles of Highly Effective Conspirators

7 Principles of Highly Effective Conspirators

  1. Plan everything
  2. Commit plan to memory
  3. Destroy all evidence of plan or planning
  4. Speak to no one of plan, not even closest allies
  5. Forget plan completely
  6. Initiate plan accordingly
  7. Claim failure was due to “them” that conspired against you

Thursday, March 01, 2018

The Real Secret, really

Apathy is a circumstance that often seems the choice that makes some sense.  Why should I give a shit about anything at all?  It is not like it will make any difference.

I once thought that I could make a difference.  I once believed that your actions mattered.  That you could effect change through deeds and even to some degree words and pictures.  I now know that it was a false hope that I harbored, and that because I did not have connections to the right groups, to the money chain, that I was just fooling myself.

Sort of how I once thought this blog was an answer to something.  That what I wrote here mattered at least to someone.  I now know that is not the case.  I now realize that nothing matters, except where money is made.  There are no causes, only more subversive means to an end.  If it does not sell something, if there is no money to be made, it is a waste of time.

That is why the gun issue is so hot.  It makes lots of money, no matter what side of the issue you profess you are on, it makes lots of money.  The "anti-gunners" raise millions in donations from well meaning idiots who think that if they can just get all the guns from people violence will somehow go away.  The "pro-gunners" believe that they can protect themselves from radical anti-gunner type liberals by maintaining their right to gear arms.  The whole issue is a money pit and the same people make money on both sides.  Fucking idiots are just too dam dumb to see that.

War on Drugs, works about as well as Prohibition did, only the people who support it, and the people who oppose it are not aware of the flow of cash, so they just go on with their stump speech, ignorant of the money that is being made on them.

Right up there with religion.  Let me tell you about this guy that may or may not have existed some 4000 years ago, and as long as you believe in him, you will be rewarded in death.  Of course we have never had any complaints, because the dead do not complain.  No better scam has ever been created, at least not one that I can think of right at the moment.  Give me time, there are so many.

Politics, another scam, because I need some fat bastard to tell me how to behave.  Because I need to support his lifestyle so he can make laws that make him and his corporate friends more money.  When will the ignorance end?  Now that I know the answer to, but I will just keep that to myself, so sense in giving the "secret" away.

If you really want to know the secret.  I mean if you really, really need to know the answer, I can provide it to you.  Just send $24.95 to my PayPal account and I guarantee that you will get exactly what you seek.


Wednesday, February 14, 2018

What You Need to Know About Alice in Wonderland DOCUMENTARY

This video intrigues me, as all things concerning Lewis Carroll and his Alice stories.  I have said many times before that there is more truth in "Alice's Adventures Through Wonderland" than in most other books written, including the bible.  I have wondered about this, and even with my extensive study of other works, fiction and non-fiction, it has yet to be displaced.  What fortunate accident occurred to project this through his work is yet undiscovered, and even with this film (and others like it) only part of the truth is known.

It is my belief that Lewis Carroll had some connection to the divine, or spirit world, but I do not know how that is.  Perhaps it is only through the eyes of a child.  Perhaps he himself was as a child, as the eastern beliefs profess, as to be a child, as to be without judgement, and full of wonder.

I do not know, but perhaps one day I will.  Though I sometimes believe I am far too cynical now to have the eyes of a child ever again.



Tuesday, February 13, 2018

Now That I Think of It

I am not too certain I will be online much longer.  As I look at the future of online, I see the writing on the wall.  I already pay for too much, and as software as a service starts to really be a thing, it will be the end of software for me.  I mean sure there will still be some open source software out there, but for how long, and will it be able to compete.  One thing it will not do is it will not have access to the world wide web, though I believe that it will have access to the network.  We will be back to using IP addressing like in the days of BBS and 300 baud modems.

We will have to build our own networks, from discarded surplus network switches, and wireless channels that haven't been used in ages, like the old renegade radio operators used to do.  We will also have to use burst, as I am sure they (the FCC or whatever corporate and government watch dog service they have at that time) will be looking for such impromptu networks.  Run a few messages, and then move, go dark, because we don't want to give them any signal to track.

It will be difficult as Amazon and Google will have bots on the networks looking for just such ad hoc networks, and will be able to find them in very short order.  We will have to watch the skies for drones, supposedly delivering packages, but they will be looking for hackers, for any undesirable individual that does not pay for their services.  We will have to grow our food under the limelight of the sun, when we can see it, otherwise we will have to forage the refuse dumps of the elite and mega-cities.

If this sounds like a dystopian fantasy plot, I wish it were.  Perhaps I will write it as such, so to hide the truth that is on the horizon, through what will be seen as fiction.  Maybe some will see the truth behind the lines of pretty prose, and those that do not...


The End of SketchUp for me

I gave it a shot, but the new online version of SketchUp just sucks.  Sure maybe it is my network, but I can not change that.  So I am back to using the 2017 version of SketchUp which still works just fine.  Of course now I can not get updates to my extensions, or the program, but at least it works.  The unfortunate thing is that unless I go to the Professional version of SketchUp, I will not be able to use it after some time, as it will be degraded.

Now I have to look for an alternative to SketchUp, that does not cost over a $1,000.00, which is hard to find.  I liked SketchUp, I liked that it was free to use for personal use, but I guess that was not okay with Google, for they have effectively said either you use this crap version on line that is almost impossible to use (I do more waiting for it to update the model than actual work), or you pay us our $1,000.00 for the Professional version.  A little like extorsion, almost, but not quite.  Certainly not what I would like to see from Google, but nothing I do not expect from a software company.

There will be other programs, but that means new learning curve, and I have invested so much into SketchUp.  For the most part I am just disappointed really.  It has been fun, thank you for the ride.  All I can ask is when will you force us to either pay for GMail or use some neutered online only version.


Sunday, February 11, 2018

OBS to Twitch stream maybe

I was thinking of working on the SketchUp project today, but instead I think I will work on the OBS stream to Twitch thing.

So yea, that is what I am doing, maybe.


Thursday, February 08, 2018

SEA OF THIEVES : What Worries Me?

I just finished watching this video made by Gopher.  Though I have not actually watched him and Chay play this game (well that is not entirely true, I watched a few minutes of their first Twitch stream), and though I do not think I would probably play this game, in this video he talks about issues he is concerned with.  He talks about content, or the lack there of, cross platform issues, and micro transactions.  I feel this is an issue with many games, especially the newer MMO type games.

I have many of the same concerns.  The one I would like to first address is Micro Transactions.  Like Gopher I can see the rationale for them to some degree, though I believe that if you pay for the game, that should pay for the development of the game if it is of sufficient quality to warrant its existence in the first place.  As for cosmetic things, I can see that too, lots of people want special clothes for their character, or in this case, maybe different paint jobs for their ship.  Like Gopher I believe that you should be able to get the same things in game through process of playing the game, and that MT's should be just a short cut.  I can see the potential for additional content to be purchased, like new ship types, or such, more maps, and lots of other items could be sold in the form of packs that one could purchase if one so desired it.  The Sims franchise was very successful with their stuff packs, I do not see why this would not work as well.  If the game were opened to modding, then that too could be used as a revenue source, as long as the mod authors (developers) were also provided with some of the revenue from the sale of their mods.  They would also have to be like MT's in that for a cutlass recolor or some such thing, the cost would be very low, perhaps like $.50 and for an outfit recolor, maybe a dollar, something like that.  The really popular ones could be combined in a stuff pack, and a few new ones in-house made could be thrown in as a bonus, with maybe a new shop or map to make it worth the money you pay for it.  I do not find it all that difficult to figure out, but I am not the developer of the game, and maybe they just do not have the time to figure all this out and still work on the basic parts of the game.  Hopefully they will be successful, and will have the money for further development and to pay a few extra developers to make such considerations.

The content issue is one that I think they will have to address to make the game successful at all.  Of course it could just be a one-off and they are not really concerned with long term franchise success, and so content is not their concern, as they figure if it is successful, some other larger game house will come along and buy the game from the original developers, and they can then move on to a new game.  That is fine, and I think it is short sighted, but be that as it may, I can see how that could be their goal.

As far as cross platform play, one way to do that is to develop in a cross platform language, like Java, however I do not know if that would help to create a cross platform server environment.  I do not pretend to know how that would work, I only have a rudimentary understanding of software languages, I have always been a hardware person myself.  I know I have seen lots of distasterious results when a game is ported either way, though that does not seem to me it should be so, as they are both PC, just one is dedicated and locked to certain hardware, where as the general computer is a more fluid platform.  Game consoles are actually personal computers, that are locked to their purpose (though they have expanded their purpose as of the latest generations to some degree) and general purpose computers are often not locked to a purpose, but often built with a more specific purpose in mind (such as a gaming computer).  I think the difference comes in the devices used to interact with each type of computer.  Game consoles are designed to be used with a controller, while general computers are designed to be used with keyboard and mouse.  I am pretty sure you could do either with either, even if you had to add some software to either to make them work as they should with the chosen devices.  I think VR will level that field some, as that is a device that is basically the same on either a game console, or a general purpose computer.  If you choke the hardware of either platform you have taken the wrong route, and you should reconsider how you are going to make the cross platform server work.  There must be a way, or just accept that those that have a computer that is more powerful than the game console player has the advantage, much like someone with the better network and better general purpose computer will usually win out against any person with a weaker network or less than ideal general purpose computer.

As far as this game is concerned, the Sea of Thieves, if it does not allow for the boarding of other ships, it there is no Navy component, if it is not a sailing simulator, and you can somehow sail the ship by yourself, then I have no interest in it.  I should be able to port in at Nassau or Madagascar or some other such place, and perhaps have some tap room brawls, and the threat of mutiny, and all the other concerns of being a real pirate.  I should also be able to get a commission from the navy to take on the merchant ships of other nations, for bounty's so that I am not necessarily a pirate but a privateer.  If I capture a rival ship, I should get that ship to add to my fleet.  I should be able to call for quarter from the Navy, or Parly from a rival pirate ship, and though I would loose my ship and my crew, I would be let go, and allowed to go back to the nearest port, where I would have to start all over again to build up my wealth until I could get a new ship, if I did not steal one, build up a crew, and then try again.  If the bounty were high enough, obviously I would get no quarter, and would hang from the yardarms or something like that, but I should have the opportunity for a trial, and therefore a period where I may actually make an escape.  Or if found guilty, sent to Botany Bay, or to some desolate island where I would likely die of thirst before I could find a way to get back to some other place.  You see there is a lot that could be done here, I know it would be a lot to do all that, but what is the point of making a game if it is just another FPS but with ships.  Well maybe there is a big point, but you would definitely not find me buying it then.



Friday, February 02, 2018

Video Stream Success... sort of

I was actually able to make a video stream, on Hangout OnAir, and it worked, sort of.  The audio quality is pretty bad, and the video quality is not that great, but I was able to do it.  It is not available on my channel, because it is not ready for primetime yet.

Next I will try to make a video using OBS, and will see how that goes, but not today.  I need to check my Twitch settings, and see what I can do to improve the audio quality.  I do not expect that I will be doing many videos in the near future, but as I work through the process I am learning to do them, and perhaps in a while I will begin broadcasting them both on Twitch (live) and on Youtube (condensed versions).

As I get this down I will be able to set up Arleta's channel and using the Nikon or her phone (most likely the phone) will be able to make videos for her as well.  These will likely be the more popular videos as she is not only doing things that are interesting, but she is also much more social than I am.

Yes I have all the popular social sites, but I really only check on Twitter once in a while, and G+ here and there.  My Twitter repost everything to Facebook for me, otherwise I almost never check Facebook, as it is just too much crap.  Yes I am on Steam as well, but again I do not do the social thing very much, so I would not look for me there either.

I have been playing this game called Minetest, which is an open source voxel sandbox, like Minecraft, but not the same.  I would still like to get Minecraft, and I have made a channel on Youtube just for that.  If someone does gift me Minecraft now that I know how to stream, I will stream the raw video on Twitch and upload the edited versions to Youtube on my Mine Salad Surgery channel.

So there you go, two blog post in one day, what is going on with me, am I getting social like, no not likely.


SketchUp Pipes and Other Frustrations

Making pipes in SketchUp is not all that fun, but necessary if I want to be able to show all the mechanicals.  I thought the creation of a bracket was difficult, how wrong I was.  I know there is probably some pre-made things in the 3D Warehouse, but I have never really had much luck with fitting those models into my model, so I just make everything myself.  Sometimes I want to just buy some of the extensions that do that sort of thing, they look so useful, but I have to have the Professional version of SketchUp first, and that is at least $700.00 out of my range at the moment.  So I make it work, and it does, but it is definitely a process, and an exercise in frustration sometimes.

Yesterday I fought with the program for about an hour with no results, today, I was able to get it to do basically what I wanted in a few minutes.  That happens a lot.

In a related issue, I am fighting with trying to livestream on Youtube using Hangouts on Air.  I was able to do a few seconds of streaming, but my mic was turned off, so there was no audio.  Then try asw I might, I could not get it done after that.  I gave up and said "Hey I have OBS, we will try that".  No deal, even trying to find a video on how to do that ended in me just giving in and ranting for about a half hour on how back when I used to use broadcast cameras and film cameras this was not a problem.  That brings me to the point of my Nikon camera.  While it is a nice camera I guess, or so I am told, it is much more akin to the Kodak Disk camera or the Box Brownie than any Nikon I ever used.  Hell my Yashica had more control than this thing does.  I have managed to make it make some alright snapshot type pictures, but certainly not any type of real photography.  I have read that it is a good video camera, as long as it is hooked up to an external drive or PC as even with a big chip it will only make a few minutes of video in raw format.  My question is how do you shut off the microphone, and there is no place for an external microphone so how do you do passable audio.  Even a fairly cheap video camera has at least the ability to shut off the audio and or input external audio, so you can use a better quality microphone.  For some people it would be fine, it is basically a point and shoot camera, and with its auto settings it will do a decent job of taking a snapshot.  There are no real controls.  I do not pretend to understand how digital photography works, it is still a new process to me, but as far as cameras are concerned they were working, why reinvent the wheel.

I never did like auto-focus lenses, but I did adjust to one or two on my Minolta, for certain situations.  I preferred my Yashica, or my Contax or my Nikon, all of which were standard SLR cameras with standard lenses.  Personally I preferred the Contax over all of them.  I want to have control over the ASA speed of the film (or whatever is equivalent), I want to have control over the f-stop of the lens, I want to have control of the shutter speed.  These three controls were all that was needed to make great photos.  With control of these simple mechanisms you could do all sorts of things.  Yes you still had to consider the lighting, but I could shoot in near darkness without night vision, all I needed was a small amount of light and a tripod.  I could control the film speed, shutter speed and aperture setting, and with that make photos in near darkness.  Once you mastered those settings, all else was just style.

I used to teach photography to little children that came to the Art Guild, and we started without cameras, just learning how to see light and shadow.  Then we made our own pinhole cameras, and learned about how the light effected the paper.  Once they had learned that we moved on to other things like cameras and their parts.  Some of the parents were worried that I could not teach their children how to make good pictures in the short time we had over the summer.  Every single one of them were able to make great photos after the four Saturdays of lessons, and the parents wanted me to teach them.  I could not do the same today, I do not even begin to understand digital photography, and though I get progress, and I know film is dead, I just wonder why the hell they thought they needed to reinvent the camera.  The camera worked, they did not fix it, they broke it.  The digital camera is not a step forward, it is not progress, it is regression.  We are back to Box Brownies, which were great for their time, but when moveable lenses came out, no one said hey we still want our single focal plane cameras.  No one misses the Camera Obscura as cool as it was, Kodak and Polaroid were way cooler.

It is sort of like going back to quill and ink, it is cool for the historical aspect, but really the innovation of movable type made all the difference.  Even though now days most people use a computer to write (I am composing this on the blog on my laptop), the basics are still the same.  I am still typing on a keyboard, and the type is still being produced on the screen in letters that form words and in some cases ideas.  This is thoughtful and organized progression.  Touchscreens are not, touch screen swiping keyboards are not.  These are aberrations, and lead to regression.  Just like net-speak is not a language, and it should not be used by anyone of any amount of intellect.  I am a writer, I use slang, colloquialisms, dialect, and localized speech patterns for character development, but when trying to get a point across, I try (although usually unsuccessful) to be concise, and get to the point in an organized manor using language that is at least mostly proper.  This helps to facilitate communication of ideas without the need to figure out what the hell lol stands for.  The first time I actually heard someone say "lol" after saying something to someone, I wanted to shoot either them or myself, I wasn't sure which one would solve the problem.  Now I realize "New Speak" is on the rise, and soon we will either learn "New Speak" or we will be part of the 5 minutes.  At this point in my life I would rather be outside than in the Party, thank you.

On that note, I am leaving, not forever, but for a time, do not know how long, could be a day, or an hour, or maybe until I find something else to rant about.


Wednesday, January 31, 2018

300ish Cabin Update 013118 Beams are Needed

The 300ish square foot cabin based on the Euclidean Phi ratio so far.  Still a lot to go, and the single deck bracket is just there to illustrate the bracket, I will have to lay out the deck first to place them on the beams properly.

The beams are built up beams from rough cut 2"x10" boards of various lengths so that no seams are beside another seam break.  They have 1/2" CDX plywood (exterior) between each layer of dimensional lumber, and are glued and nailed.  They are nominally 22' long giving the entire deck dimension of 13'5/8" by 22', which maintains the ratio of Phi (mostly).  The deck will sit on top of the beams with double ends, double centers, as the deck will be built in four parts, put on the beams, bolted together, and tied with the beam to deck brackets.  The deck will also have joist hangers for the deck joist.  The beams are also tied to the concrete pylons using brackets.  Each pylon has two J-bolts that are bolted to the brackets to tie the beams to the pylons.  Doing this will mean we will not have to have huricane straps, as the entire structure is tied to the concrete pylons.  The pylons are 8" above the ground surface.  The ground surface will be prepped to provide a level plane, which will include drainage tiles and pipes to ensure that the pad stays dry and level (as best as we can given the knowledge of soil types for a particular area).  The pylons are 48" though this is for areas with cold weather (zone 3) where the frost line is 48".  The pad will be dug down for 24" to provide space for tiles and substrate for drainage pipes.

Since this will also have a Geo-thermal pump installed, it may include a deep hole for the piping, but that is usually best if done outside the actual house, as the pump is not under the house.

That is the update for now, I will post more when I get more done.  Sometimes it is quite frustrating working on this as the software sometimes is a bit wonky, and I need a better mouse.  At some point I want to purchase the Pro version of SketchUp and the SketchUp mouse, which even at about $800.00 (for software and mouse) is still about $1,200.00 cheaper than the comparable offerings from companies like Autodesk.

Eventually this as well as at least three other designs I am working on will be made available in an ebook format, with links to download the designs in a format that can be presented as plans for the construction of any of the houses.  Most of the houses are on the small side, though not tiny per se, the larger colonial is over 1000 square foot, while this one is just under 300 (296.something) square foot.

Just a little disclaimer here; no these links are not affiliate links.  I used to have affiliate links, but Amazon pulled my account for inactivity or some such BS, and I have never actually had any type of Google affiliate account.  The fact is I provide them so that if you wanted you could actually see the stuff I am talking about.  I am done with trying to play that game, it just does not work for me.  I do still have adsense on my blog, mostly because I haven't taken the time to remove it, though I most likely will in the near future.  In the ten or so years that I have been blogging I have earned nothing for all the advertising I had on it, and I am not going to blog stuff just to get advertising.  I do this for me, if others find it interesting that is cool, enjoy it.  Comment if you like, I do not say I will even notice the comments, and I have no notifications set up on this blog anymore, nor do I check my email all that often.  If you really want to contact me, send me a message through Twitter, though I do not even respond all that quickly to that either, so do not expect a fast response.  Hey if you want to be all generous and shit, I have a PayPal, if I get some comments about such things I might consider putting a link in the blog so people can donate to my work through PayPal.  Share this if you want, take the work and do as you wish with it, I don't care, it is for my own reasons I do this.  I would like to get credit for my work, but I do not seek any real recognition, just doing what I do, and fuck the rest.

Some people say I should do a video blog or something like that, but so far I have not done well with the video thing.  I am not interested enough in such things to take the time to make quality videos, and really unless I can make them to my standards, what is the point of making them at all.  I am considering making videos for my Minetest and MineCraft plays, but again that remains to be seen.  Right now, it will not likely happen anytime soon, as I just do not care enough about the whole social scene online to bother.  Yes I have a Twitter account, yes I have a Facebook account, yes I have a Pinterest account, yes I have a Snapchat account (which is weird because I do not have a smart or even dumb phone), and yes I do sometimes even check on these streams, though usually only Twitter and G+, so those are the two to best contact me through.  So, yea that is the disqualifier BS that should help people if they want to contact me.

Thank you,

Saturday, January 27, 2018

Beam to Deck Joist End Bracket

This took me the better part of an hour.

This is the top beam bracket for the end of the beams that sit on the concrete pylons to tie in the deck joist.  It is set up for a double deck end joist.  I will post more later.



Tuesday, January 23, 2018

AR or Not

It's augmented reality ready for work?  My take on it is that not quite.  I liked Google glass, but I see the problems.  I also see the potential, but it is only one part of the augmented reality.  In addition to vision, there needs to be other senses.  In addition the devices need to interact with applications, and with the world around us.

I am thinking it will take a while, but there are some VR offerings that are getting better, but they lack the ability to interact with the world.  It will be a while, but at least things are moving, and that is something.


Sunday, January 21, 2018

Another Tesla X

This article is a decent in-depth look at the Tesla X, the SUV from Tesla.  Like a lot of their offerings, for most people it is too soon, but given another five or ten years and they will be definitely a great choice to make.

Still if you have the money and just have to be that person, then any of the Tesla offerings would be a good choice.  As of right now, their stock is the thing to watch.  I think if they continue to work on the commercial vehicle and powerplant areas, it really could propel the company forward.

Release of the model 3, will help, if they can work out their issues and continue to innovate, they will at least be a good but for quite some time.


New Colonial sort of not

Not even going to attempt to post an updated picture of the design, as I have to start over.  I realized I was doing the post completely wrong.  I tried to make it work, but I want to do it right, so back to the scratch pad.  I am going to try to use the newest version of Sketchup Make, the one that is on the browser, and see if that is any better.  It might be easier as I might have better access to the warehouse, so I won't have to construct all the materials myself.  This will be especially useful when it comes to the post ties, as I am using concrete pylons with 6x6 post above the grade.

I thought I was making good progress, and then the whole thing just dawned on me that it was all impossible to accomplish the way I was doing it.  It is not that big of a deal, but it does set me back some, and I won't be posting any new pictures any time soon as the detail work is definitely far more detail than I like to do, so I do so in small burst.

I will try to post some in the next week or so, but I don't make any promises, as I never know what else is going to come up.

Monday, January 15, 2018

New Colonial sort of update 2

Well I have thought about the colonial, and I am still working on it, but I have considered a little update to the roof line.  So I did a quick sketch edit, and I am not real good with MS draw, so it is a dirty edit, but I think it shows where I am headed.  I will be doing the edit in Google Sketch-up soon, and that will be published to show the updates.

I have some additional updates coming, as I am starting the foundation build in Google Sketch-up.  It is going to be built on a pier foundation, though it could be built on any foundation.  I also will have a lot of window and door details that are not present in the sketch.  Once I start the frame up there is going to be some shifting around of the lines, the stairs are moving over about 2' so even out the upstairs, which will give a bigger bedroom downstairs, and a smaller pantry area, though I may shift a few other details, to give more pantry room.

The mechanicals will be presented in this design, as they have not been in others that I have drawn.  In addition to plumbing and HaVAC, I will be presenting electrical and other details like the low voltage systems, smart home details, and even safety and security details.

I think I am going to look at a geo-pump and radiant floor heating, plus gas heaters, so this will be quite a bit more ambitious design.

At 36' x 24' this is quite a large house for me, much bigger than I usually design.  This is a 1,7282 foot home, which is ginormous for my usual designs.  I would like to cut it down some, but for the sake of the design as I saw it, this is going to work as it is.  It is very simple and the first floor is very open, with a very large staircase, under which is storage for the master bedroom.  In addition to that, the front of the staircase can be opened so that can be used for some mechanicals that need to have a central location, like distributors for the in floor radiant heating.

On the second floor I am using propane or natural gas heaters, though I am not certain what type yet, I am still considering that.  The second floor heaters will be supplemental heaters as between the radiant heat, and the geo-heat I might not need a central heating system as is usual in house such as this.  I am still working out the thermodynamics of the envelope to determine what will work best.  There will not be an air exchanger or forced air, so if anything it will be a boiler on the first floor, as that is where the radiant heat system is, and that will also be used if the Geo-thermal heater does not produce sufficient heat.  This plan should be usable in most areas, even where extreme temperatures are.  In areas of higher heat a heat pump could be used in place of or in addition to the Geo-thermal pump to cool the interior.

Well time to get back to work so I can begin to get the foundation details done, and I will try to publish that as soon as I get it done.