Tuesday, June 12, 2018

What You Get for Thinking

I do everything wrong, no key words in my title, no hot topics in my blog, but here I am again watching the same old shoot'em up, and the same old who done what to whom.  I don't know much about anything, I just know I keep putting these miles behind me, and no matter how far I roam, I'm still ten thousand miles from home.

Hum this with a twelve four beat, it won't make it any better it will just be funny to me that some people will actually try to.

What am I doing here, watching the dogs, as they go ballistic after another motorcycle, or some random noisey car. 


Saturday, June 09, 2018

Too Much to Tell

I did not think I would be effected.  I do not usually feel death the same as most people.  I mean people die, they go their way, and leave behind a useless cage.  I still had this weird feeling that he was going to come over and say it was okay.  He always did that, console me, tell me it will be okay, and I believed him, if even for the moment.

He is silent now, not even the echo of his voice remains.  Memories linger longer, but even they will fade.  I grasp at them like reeds in a storm, the water rises, I am not a strong swimmer.

They gave him a good christian burial, I know he deserved that.  What else could they do, they do not know any better, ignorant as they are.  Death is for the living, we even celebrate it.  The past fades, we slip into routines and accept the ghost as they are, memories of what they were.  Nothing remains once the remains are laid to rest.

I should have said something, should have made a statement, a testament to his greatness.  People do that, they pronounce their understanding of the person that was, and profess their gratitude for the past they will hold onto.  I failed him, in that, I should have been stronger in the face of that.  Why did I wait so long to say goodbye, that was stupid.

We all do, busy souls, busy looking busy, trying to make ends meet, they don't.  Fruitless in our pursuit of happiness, of wealth, of all that is holy, of purpose, for a brief moment, fleeting as it is, it all ends the same, our useless form rotting in a tomb, for some future that does not exist.  Why do we perform such rituals?  What do they provide us with?  It never made any sense to me, but I guess something must be done.

I drone on, stumbling through philosophical bullshit, asking why, why does this still affect me, why am I still thinking, why haven't I laid to rest the ghost of my past?  I am expecting no answer, because there is no one to answer, he is gone and he will not say it is okay any more.

I have to go now, because it is starting to rain, just a little, and I can't see as well as I used to, through the blur.  Perhaps my eyes are getting tired, this light is not very bright, and I think I hear someone calling my name.


Sunday, May 27, 2018

You Would Not Believe Me Anyway

Here then is this article, http://tcat.tc/112or2n, which discusses the making of your own religion, or thereby another copy of such religions as has been made before.  It does not discuss the making of a religion, but the re branding of current concept of religion under a new brand.  It is still the bronze age idea of "God" based religion.

You can not make your own religion, because religion has too much structure, for it to work, it must conform to the conventions of current religions.  If you read the article, read some of the comments, they are as important to the discussion.  There are plenty of comments from people who profess to be atheist, which by definition is the belief in nothing, yet they believe they are atheist, therefore negating the entire argument.

The author of the article states that human beings are hardwired to be religious.  This is not exactly true, we are hardwired to believe in somethings, no matter what they are.  Religions have this knowledge, and have used it to gain from what might be a weakness of the human.  Even the belief in science or physics does not make them any more true.

This leads us to another point the author made, that religion is based on truths.  This is partly true.  A truth is a belief that is generally held to be true, it is not a fact.  A fact is something that can not be refuted, it can be proven, and it is above truth.  However if he meant that your religion should be based on "true facts" then that would not be a religion, but would be a study.  However if you knew how "scientific fact" was determined, you would realize that it is just another form of religion.  It is scientific fact that facts lie, that they are not immutable, and that even the physical laws are not written in stone, but may or may not be provable.

One comment used the bullet to the head argument for belief in "God".  This is not an argument at all, this is a desperate plea by someone who thinks they have been wronged by some persecution by some sect of the population or another.  They believe that they can "prove" or disprove the existence of "God" through a physical act.  That is not how "God" works, that is how gods work, not how the "God" works.  Since you can not prove your own existence, it would be impossible to prove or disprove the existence of any entity beyond your comprehension.  When you can offer factual proof of your own existence, I will then begin to consider the process of proving other beings.

Let us take some basic "truths" of the physical world.  All matter is the manifestation of energy into a form that is consumable.  Another way to see that is that all matter is energy.  However not all energy is matter, so therefore there must be energy that is not matter.  All that we know is matter, energy is a force that we know because of the matter that exist.  We do not have a means to detect energy, we can only assume energy exist because we can detect the results, or matter.  We do not know all matter, there is matter that exist that we only assume exist because we can detect the energy that should be present.  Therefore there must be anti-matter, and there must be more than one state of energy.

Okay, now I am going to leave the realm of energy for something else, nature.  Nature is something we can all agree on right, it is as it is.  We can sense nature, right.  It is a physical manifestation of matter, that is it is physical in nature, it contains energy in a form that we can detect and sense with our limited senses.  We can see, touch, taste, smell, hear even nature, right.  Therefore nature must be of the physical nature, and must be matter.  So I ask, what are the states of nature?  Does nature have states, like energy does?  These are of course questions to which there are not any easy answers.

Suppose nature has two states, this simplifies the question and allows for less confusion.  It also bears out over the course of study.  What are the two states of nature?  Let us say they are order and chaos.  The actual states are moot, and the labels we apply to them are merely for convenience of communicating the ideas that are acceptable to most people.  So we will call them order and chaos, as that makes this much easier to grasp, but only marginally.

Nature has two states.  The natural state is order, this is the state of balance.  When this state exist, all is in balance, and nothing changes.  Order is the status in balance, no energy is consumed or transmuted, and matter exist in balance.  Chaos is the creative phase, here is where change exist.  In chaos destruction is creation, for you can not have one without the other.  Energy is neither created or destroyed, it is only transmuted, therefore only when it is unstable can it be transmuted.  When it is balanced, it is not transmutable, and all matter in that state must remain in that state, for it is not transmutable.  It retains the energy to be transmutable, but it is not in that state therefore is is not transmutable.  Once it becomes unstable it is transmutable.  Therefore one of the states of energy is entropy.  By knowing or at least accepting the two states of nature, we therefore can begin to accept the states of energy.  We can see this by the form of nature, the transmutation of matter that is nature.  Since energy is susceptible to entropy, to decay, that would mean that nature is as well.  All nature is matter, all matter is energy, therefore all of nature is ruled by the same rules as energy.  Therefore all nature must decay, and from that decay comes destruction, and chaos is destruction and creation, so from destruction comes creation, therefore there is not balance, and all nature is mutable, as is all matter, but not all energy.  Some energy is not mutable, some energy does not decay, some energy is not susceptible to entropy, and therefore there must be some energy that creates without the destruction.

How do we know this?  We do not, or at least science does not.  I know this, and I will discuss this at another time.  This is "God", the energy not susceptible to entropy.  It is not the "God" but if you are referring to your "God", the creator god, this is what you are referring to.

So yes the author of this article was presenting this with "tongue in cheek", but he was not far off.  All standard religions are created this way.  All religions that have a "God" are created this way.  The god religions, the polytheistic religions that do not have a "God" are a different breed, but they are stone age religions, and have long since been forgotten.  Any religion with a creator "God" is the same and any religion, a creation of man to understand creation, but more so to understand nature.  That most of them, nearly all of them have been corrupted by man is not surprising.  That they have been and are still used to manipulate the peasants is not surprising.  That they are opposed, that other variations are devised to "correct" the weaknesses is not surprising, they are creations of man, they will continue to reflect the creators.

Belief is false, even if it is based in fact, as even facts are false.  Belief can be true to some, but it will not be true for all, and there will be a point where it will fail to be true for most people.  This is because belief is influenced by emotions, and emotions are influenced by perceptions, and perceptions are based on instruments that are not specific enough to present facts that are irrefutable.

However, we are, for the most part hardwired to "believe" in something, even if that something is ourselves.  We are further given to believe in concepts that are for the most part universal among humans, though they may not be so among other species.  I do not think a tree believes its death is noble, and though it will play its part in decomposition, which is far more important than we as humans tend to present, it does not think of such things, at least I do not think it does.  I want to believe that there is a spirit, that there is a form of energy that is not transmutable, but I can only say that I believe that there is such, I only have personal experience, and perhaps some conjecture as to the truth of the non-transmutable energy that is in all of nature.  That although every bit of matter, and all of the anti-matter, be it made of light energy, or dark energy is transmutable energy, but I can not say that with impunity.

As any one that reads this knows, I have recently lost member of my family, my brother to be exact.  I have at least lost the matter that mattered to most people.  That is his "soul cage" has ceased to be useful to the spirit that within it existed.  That is something I believe, that although entropy may destroy the matter that matters most to most people, that the energy that is most important to the matter that matters most to me, is not transmutable, that is can not exist in this dimension as it is, nor can it be detected in any way with any instruments that we have, as we would have to create them, and therefore they would only detect that which is detectable by our own abilities.  That we have not ventured beyond this dimension is only proof that we have no imagination.  It i only proof that fear rules us, and that makes us susceptible to those who would attempt to manipulate us.  As humans we are susceptible to manipulation because we allow emotions to guide us.  We can not do otherwise, as that point of energy, as dense as it is, it is only chaos, it is not able to come into balance, and therefore we can not either.  How this is, I can not say, I can not say because you would not believe me anyway.


Sunday, May 13, 2018

Family Values

Been trying to get my head wrapped around this for some time now.  From the day I learned of his diagnosis, I knew the eventual outcome.  Still I thought it should not be.  I have been so distant, so remote, I did not know these people anymore.  Still I felt as though I knew my brother, I would see him here and there.  I still do not know what to say to anyone.

At some point I had broken away from the family, and I have never reconnected on any level really.  The past I thought was behind me, ghost of a distant self, now haunt me from the prison of my mind.  Shadows stalk me from the shadows of those that before me tread these paths.  I am not alone here, but I am without something, something I never thought mattered until yesterday.

Tom is gone, he gave me hope, reminded me of humanity, and I wanted that, though it was out of reach for me.

A new person comes along, and I am still cautious, there is no reason, no rhyme, I should not have seen this, I am way beyond my time.  Am I just the person I am today, or did something spark the ancient self in the loss, that lingers yet within, now close to the boiling point, yet beyond my grasp.

I feel sorry for those that are left without the sun that was the shining example of my brother, while the darkness slowly begins again to consume what was left of my soul.  All that remains is a singular spark of my wife, the love of my life, and I just do not know if she even has enough light to temper the depth of shadows that lies behind me, waiting for the last of my will to relinguish what she has held aloft for so long.


Wednesday, April 18, 2018

Blogging for Bloggers

After nearly two weeks of frustration, I have realized one thing, building a blog on WordPress is not as easy as the YouTubers make it out to be.  It is pretty simple to set up, with one click install and all.  Setting up security, it is a little more difficult, but with a few plugins that is not too bad.  Then a few more plugins and you can have a fairly interesting site in a fairly short amount of time.  Just add content and you are all set.

Add an ecommerce plugin like woocommerce and you have a decent site for your blog I guess.

The truth is to do this, you need more than just a domain name, a web server, a CMS application, and an ecommerce solution.  Maybe I am wrong, most likely I am wrong.

Let me give you a little background.  I started out with technology pretty much when it started.  I built my first computer from a kit.  I had to learn programming because there really wasn't any applications.  Some friends and me built applications, and just for fun we did some hacking.

I was a field service tech for quite some years, providing network service and basically fixing computers all around the Northeast.  This is one of the reasons I just do not buy into the ai thing.  I have seen the network and hardware from the field, and have used applications from the beginning of their existence.  All that aside, and without going into too much detail, I have a fair idea about technology.

I used to build websites, with html, before css even existed.  Then I used css when it first came into being from W3C.  I learned Java, JavaScript, the Dom, and the list goes on.  At one time I could paper my bedroom with the certifications I held.  All that means nothing today.  I remember when Dreamweaver came out, and I still preferred hand coding.  With the plugin and visual composers, I am totally at a loss.

So I have embarked on this journey, and right now I am starting all over again.  Believe when I say, I would rather hand code, but that is not the way these days.  So let me tell you, right now, I do not think much about WordPress, it is not high my list, but it is a priority.  I am struggling with it, but I am learning, albeit I am my own worst problem.  As I try to get out of my way, we will see how it goes.

Here's the point, what the WordPress gurus tell you, what the blog gurus tell you is total bullshit.  They are trying to sell you in their courses, their products, and hoping you will click on their affiliate links.  Does that mean they have nothing to teach you, no you can learn from them, and to be perfectly honest with you, follow them and you are going to build a great site.  You just will not know how or why.  For lots of people that is fine, but for me that just does not work.


Friday, April 06, 2018

Amazon Reviews

I've been buying from Amazon for quite a few years now, and have really increased my number of products I buy from them over the past couple of years.  I think it is time I went back on the site and actually provided some reviews of the products I have used.

Oh wait, maybe what I should do is write the reviews on a blog, and then use a snapshot of the full review, with my blog site link in it, to post on Amazon.  And I could put an Amazon affiliate link in my blog post to the product, so when I publish the blog post and update my Twitter feed, it would have the affiliate link built in.

Now I need to build a Twitter post frame, so that too enhances my brand.  Wait first I have to build the brand identity.

I guess posting a review on Amazon just got a whole lot more complicated.  Well first I need to see if I can actually build a template for the blog.  There is a lot to do, I really need to get busy.


Sunday, April 01, 2018

Oh Really

I read, and watch a lot of stuff on the web about this positivity movement.  It is great, sure, but sometimes you need to have a reality check.  Sometimes you just have to recognize stupid for what it is.

Now about here I could interject a bunch of wit about being a realist, or how life is not this or it is this, but I do not believe that is helpful.

No, I will say if you want to delude yourself, and that works for you, go ahead.  The same can be said for negativity, if you want to hate all day every day be my guest, just do not do it in my house.  You see I am a classical realist, and I will see the truth, and I have no qualms of telling it like it is, with no sugar added.

However I will say I do enjoy the company of a wide-eyed optimist over a white supremacist most any day.

This brings me to a subject that I have not yet broken, but it has finally gotten to me, and I will be talking about it soon.  There is only one race of human, no matter what these pictuary idiots try to say.  That post is coming, just thought I would warn you, in case you want to skip that one.

So for now stay real, and have a fairly okay day.


PS: Buy my t-shirt, it will help me buy coffee, thanks.